Acid

The acid in my stomach
Is eating away at my body
Like you're eating away at my days
With the time I spend thinking of you
And I can't eat without you
'Cause my stomach clenches
At your memory
But I can't help remembering
Every day we were together
We promised it'd be forever
Last night I wrote you a letter
That I have no intention if sending
I'm still mending my heart
My knees go weak
And my hands start trembling
Every time you jog through my mind
My heart's still beating to the rhythm of your footsteps
And the echo of your voice in my head
Puts me to sleep
And keeps me awake
At night I can feel your breath
Still lingering on my skin
It sends me chills
And cold nostalgia wont keep me alive
But for now it's something
I've been punching my shadow
Until my knuckles start to bleed
Because I need to feel something
I've abandoned my creed
So I'm planting new seeds
To rid myself of these weeds
That once consumed my mind
My soul is aching
There's a hole in the center
That used to be filled by you
And no one else can do
That things you used to do
They're one in the same
But you burned a flame
That changed my life
You aimed for my heart
And you claimed me from the start
But now that we're apart
My body fights to keep it together
I'm not a feather in the breeze
You'll never lose me to the wind
I'm bolted down to the sound of your voice
I'll follow you anywhere
Cause my hand has always been yours to hold
And it's getting pretty cold
But I'd rather sleep alone
Than with someone who's not you
I pretend you're my pillow
And I squeeze real tight
I sleep with my windows open
And the fan on high
So when I wrap myself with blankets
It feels like you're there
You're somewhere in the air
But sometimes life's not fair
You don't know what you got
Until you watch it walk out the door
I didn't know what I had
Until I was left sobbing on my floor
But I know what I had with you
I'd never had before
And I won't surrender the war
That you have in your head
I'm here til the end
To defend
What we have
...What we had.