I wear you like a badge of honor

I wear you like a badge of honor
So that I never forget
How it felt
To call you mine
I've sewn you to my jacket
I've ironed you to my sleeve
So I can feel you every time
I reach for something I need
You're my battle scar
From the nights I've stared
Hazy eyed at my ceiling
Counting the stars on my walls
Instead of the scars of my conscious
From the times I've tried fighting
The war inside your head
To save you from the hurt
That I feel every time we touch
You're the scar that impresses most
But leaves no room for discussion
You're a story wating to be told
But I can't figure out the ending
Because I'm just the reader
Trying to predict what will happen next
While you're the author
With confusion scribbled through your thoughts
And a deadline you havent met
But I'm still here
Reading you the best I can
And I stumble on words from time to time
But I won't stop reading
I can't put your book down
And it's draining me
Look at me, I'm dying
Your words suffocate my dreams
To the point of sleepless nights
But I'd rather you be on my mind
Than on someone else's
And I know we'll be fine
Because I don't like to waste time
And I hardly consider you a waste of mine
So hold on tightly
And close your eyes
And I promise you our ending
Will be a great surprise