Sure, the chances of her coming back to me are slim to none, but I love her. I see her in my future, I see being with her for the rest of my life... Even if she doesnt. But I don't know what she's thinking so I'm not writing her off. Her and I are both going through shit and we have stuff in our lives that we need to figure out. I need to get my school life together in order for me to go to college, she needs to get her finances and family situation together for her to be less stressed. I know right now she doesnt want to be with me but that's okay. I'm surviving. I'm doin my own thing with school and lying low for a while. But I love her. And as hard as I've tried not to, it doesn't work. There are just some people that are worth fighting for and she's my person. Also, by no means am I putting my life on hold for her. I need to keep moving and hopefully one day she'll see what I've been trying to show her all along.
And no, you don't know what I'm going through. Call me naive but I was sure we were going to be together forever. I fucking messed up and I know that but god damn if I haven't tried everything to make it up to her and myself. You don't know how bad it hurts when I think back to the things we used to do. You don't know the regret I feel every single time I think of her. But I like feeling this way for her. I like knowing that I would do anything for her just because I care that much. And yeah, when I'm with my friends I'm happy, but that's temporary. I'm a happy person when I'm with her and I'm not going to give up on happiness. People can say what they want and they can give me their opinions on the situation but what matters is what I believe. And same goes for her. That's what I'm holding onto. Bottom line is I love her.
And no, you don't know what I'm going through. Call me naive but I was sure we were going to be together forever. I fucking messed up and I know that but god damn if I haven't tried everything to make it up to her and myself. You don't know how bad it hurts when I think back to the things we used to do. You don't know the regret I feel every single time I think of her. But I like feeling this way for her. I like knowing that I would do anything for her just because I care that much. And yeah, when I'm with my friends I'm happy, but that's temporary. I'm a happy person when I'm with her and I'm not going to give up on happiness. People can say what they want and they can give me their opinions on the situation but what matters is what I believe. And same goes for her. That's what I'm holding onto. Bottom line is I love her.
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