I've Planted Seeds In My Heart

I've planted seeds in my heart
Where the cracks won't mend
But it won't matter
Cause I'm stuck in a drought
I guess I need to cool myself off
98.6 degrees will burn my seeds
And I need it to pour
Cause you tore my seems open
Then came back for more
I'll lock up my chest
Then swallow the key
So there's no way
You can walk through my veins
Or stomp on the seeds
You held my hand just like a leash
You kept dragging me along
Leading me on - I just want peace
In myself, in my mind, in my world
But you're still the girl
Who made my life spin
It should be sin
The things you did to me
I collect my tears in a paper cup
Swallow them down then crush it up
Like you crushed me up
Like you fucked me up
Let it rain for days
So I can drown my heart
And let it grow into a fucking forrest
I'll search the trees for a brighter meaning
Memorize the paths I take
And don't let them crossover
I've made that mistake
I stitched you a sunrise and I drew you a sun
You're still inside me, you've made yourself home
But outside its still 90's, withering all my thoughts
I'll run ice over my skin
So it can seep through my pores
Flood you out of my greenhouse
What's mine is not yours