Deja Vu

I feel sick to my stomach

My hands are shaking so hard

And my palms are sweaty

Every time I think of you my stomach turns

In knots and more knots and more knots

And nausea takes over till I fall to the ground

The room wont stop spinning

Someone make it stop spinning

Because every time I get up from one of your hits

I always fall back down

In the same position I had fallen before

My body starts to ache and my back is weak

The only cure I know won't be enough

wont ever be enough again

I'm immune to it

I've dealt with it time and time again

That I don't feel better anymore

My muscles tense and my sight is fading

Get me outta this light

Shove me in the dark with my feelings

And we can hide there

Under the covers that cover our mistakes

And we can be happy

Maybe only for a moment

Maybe for just one night

Maybe for one split second when you realize

I'm terrified of the dark; so you'll laugh

And your voice will wash over me like water

And I'll swim through your words till something grabs hold of me

And your waves grow bigger and your words-sharper

The water moves me faster into the daggers

That were once your sweet, innocent words

I cant find the shore, I'm sinking

Running out of breathe I see you there reaching out your hand

But you're getting farther and farther away

Impossible to reach

Then you turn your back like lightening

Leaving me to wave; to drown

Like you knew what would happen

Like you've been here before

And you have

Deja Vu.