Tonight really showed me that I was never really MAD at her. I was sad. I was hurt. But I didn't wanna admit it. I also realized that we were the past. She's happy now and that makes ME happy. I mean it. I needed tonight. I did... To finally speak face to face without any of the bullshit or anything. So, thank you. Good luck with everything, Bil.
I'm not mad anymore it's impossible to ignore the roar in my head used to just stay in bed as tears shed sayin I was mad at you couldnt admit I was sad I drew a picture in my mind hoping to find a cure I couldn't endure it was torture i was insecure immature till today when I found the meaning of it all didn't think you would call didn't wanna fall for a trick but you came and I'm lame kinda ashamed of how I acted but became more distracted when we spoke about her and my memory's a blur but I'm happy... From day one all I wanted for you is to be true and persue a love you ju8st knew you could jump into and it took me this long with many hard days under a haze of what I thought I felt thought they dealt me the wrong cards but I see you and me can be happy as friends and I know I don't make sense I'm jambling all my words to condense my feelings of intense gratitude for putting up with my attitude i know tonight it didnt look like I took this very well but I spent some time to dwell and I know this is right I love you but as a friend you can depend on me we can spend time finally just like it used to be thank you for loving me.
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