Walmart

It was the type of quiet that twitched like fire
Silence
it was the tic tic tic tic before the bomb
but without the bomb
or the tic
well they looked me over
their parental lenses 5 ft thick protection from the glare
of the mutated form that was once
their sweet, little daughter
They wore their smiles like condoms
I curled myself into the least viral form I could think of
held back a cough and asked for a glass of water
Silence here, but in their eyes
"This ain't no Jerusalem girl, ain't a Messiah here gonna go feeding no lepor"
Silence
"You're 25 years old where the fuck's your diamond ring?"
Silence.
"Ain't no wonder they look at you. Wash your hair take that metal shit outta your face
You dress like you're livin on the streets for fucks sake and why the
hell are you sittin like you got a cock between your legs?"
Silence.
"Ain't no wonder you don't have a ring
Oh we're not saying just any boy will do...
You're not brigning home no spick no nigger no hippie no jew
no long haired faggot flippin his flaming little wrist,
I'll tie him to the fence myself."
Silence.
"Oh, now look at you. Acting like you're all scarred
like you've been doin some hard time cause you ain't got your
mommy or daddy to call and bawl about some bitch gone and broke your heart."
Silence.
"You and your fucking heart
I woulda torn it apart years ago if I'd have known you'd use
it to put this family through hell.
You got somethin to say to us just fuckin bag it do you have any idea whats it like
for us to walk through walmart with the whole town knowing out daughter's a faggot?"
You mean Dyke. "What?"
You Mean Dyke and I've got she's got we've got the 12-in cock harness and ready to prove it
Do you think i've got 5 minutes to waste in the race towards your white picket fence
right-winged pedophile preacher finish line?
I don't think so
Your ignorance bores me and I wouldn't suck a dick-a real one-anymore than I'd take
a ring from some prick you thinks my clit sits a foot inside my body give me a break
I'm gonna wait to descend to the sea
Water falls a women spillin over me and her sexy self
dancing in the volt of my lines
of my outstretched thighs
until our two bodies one
beat down all you've ever done or ever will do
with your righteous republican sanctity
I don't believe in your goodness with your should thats and should this
I'm so tired of even wasting my breath my ink on this shit
I just wanna shut my mouth now or maybe roll my words over smooth and easy
over a perfect picture of beautiful because there is so much beautiful
but I can't touch it becauase your ignorance keeps dismembering every
piece of patience I have left
and I cant keep waking up every morning remembering a
front page clipping of a boy from Wyomming
who had his face stained red by the hands
of two products who tied him and beat him and left him for dead
and when they found his body through all the blood
the only clear skin left you could see on his face were 2 streaks
down his cheeks that his tears have washed clean
and that might be a crime you would never do
but there's killers and preachers and teachers and neighbors
like you so don't fuck with me
I was your sweet, little girl when you were sweet to me
so don't expect me to listen to your version of right
I got ears of my own I've spent years on my own
you say one more thing i dont like you say one more thing i dont like
I'm drivin to walmart myself hangin up a 50-ft billboard that says
"Mark and sherly's daughter, andrea, is a fucking dyke!"

--Andrea Gibson--